I like to laugh - hard and loud. I love hard, work hard, and play hard. Surrender is not a topic that once seemed exciting to me…but I am learning that in the surrender I can laugh, love, and live harder and more than ever before. I am finding so much freedom in finding God's heart and surrendering all of my own ideas for His best ideas. This idea is shifting everything inside of me. It's shifting the way I see God. I see Him bigger now. It's shifting the way I think. I no longer think of surrender as daunting. I see it as freedom.
Now, I see surrender as a way to please God and know Him more intimately.
I trust Him more now. He has been with me through hell and back and His love for me hasn't changed. His mercy grew in my heart and head. His grace was bigger than I could have conceived in my darkest hours. I have tasted His ultimate mercy and grace as he waited patiently for my surrender a couple of years ago.
Matthew 16:24-26 says" Then Jesus went to work on his disciples. “Anyone who intends to come with me has to let me lead. You’re not in the driver’s seat; I am. Don’t run from suffering; embrace it. Follow me and I’ll show you how. Self-help is no help at all. Self-sacrifice is the way, my way, to finding yourself, your true self. What kind of deal is it to get everything you want but lose yourself? What could you ever trade your soul for?"
We all have seasons of doubt, failure and suffering…whether by our own prison of the mind, or by circumstances we have caused or have been dealt to us. We live in a place that is not our final home and it is flawed with humanity, false thinking, striving, and pure hope to believe and to live this life God has given us. This is a real tension.
In this life, we'll face suffering. Don't run from it. Embrace it. There is not one tear you cry that God doesn't deeply see and feel. There is not one problem that He is not intimately aware of and equipped to see you completely through.
God knows we need Jesus and He knows we need to want Jesus. Emptiness and suffering have a way of shaking us. It reminds us that life is short. God leans close and reminds us in these times that He is near. He has not forgotten us. Emptiness, doubt, and suffering remind us that our life can make a difference… and leave an eternal mark. Because God.
What visions has God placed in your heart for your current season and what is keeping you from fully believing?